Monday 9 January 2012

Goodbye to the terrible twos and the evil 11

I guess this is the time to reflect on the last year.  It was a fairly rubbish year, the highlights being
  • sitting in my GP's surgery waiting for her to say I told you so when I told her I was depressed;
  • Lying in on my daugher's bedroom floor waiting for her to go to sleep, sobbing because I knew I was going to be working beyond midnight and up again at 5.30
  • being signed off with depression and that feeling i was letting everyone down.
But there have been highlights
  • my daughter is amazing, wonderful, frustrating, beautifully illogical and very funny, she makes me laugh like no-one else.  She grows and develops everyday, we have proper conversations, but she does have a lively conversation, so you never quite know what's true.   I'm not sure she and her best friend went into space while at nursery.
  • I've made some good friends, somehow, through this mess I've made friends, some on twitter and some in real life, I like having friends and never seem to have many.
  • I've worked out what's important and what's not, I don't always stick by it, but I'm more concious of it.
Obviously I've made the usual new year's resolutions about eating less and exercising more, but the other ones are:
  • Be more open with people
  • Be yourself, don't try to be what you think other people want you to be
  • Do what you enjoy sometime.
Wonder how I will get on